the duality of modern miracles and chronic uncertainty

A modern miracle: the laminectomy, neurosurgery, and subsequent treatment got rid of the tumors smashing my spinal cord.
Chronic uncertainty: The tumors were extraordinarily rare so still no answers about the cause or likelihood of similar future events.
A modern miracle: my Crohn’s disease can be managed with biologic drugs, and I am currently in remission.
Chronic uncertainty: my Crohn’s disease cannot be cured and relapse is fairly common.
A modern miracle: I have been vaccinated against the coronavirus.
Chronic uncertainty: I am immunosuppressed, and the efficacy of the vaccine for me is not known, making navigating this pandemic challenging.
A modern miracle: I am pregnant. A simple blood draw tells me that I’m having a boy and the risks for some genetic diseases are low.
Chronic uncertainty: Please, dear God, please let my beleaguered body get this deeply wanted child here safely. Please let me live long enough and well enough to raise him. Please let me, and him, and all of us, figure out how to navigate this life of modern miracles and chronic uncertainty.