The litany of impossible choices facing me: which life-endangering treatments should I choose for multiple, rare, incurable, life-threatening diseases? How will I find new housing as I lose my primary source of income, am too sick to work, and disability application takes too long? How do I provide a stable home environment for my teen in the midst of all this? How do I function as part of the body of Christ after leaving a toxic spiritual community, and as an immunocompromised person in the middle of a pandemic? How do I do all this with a support network of exactly two friends? It’s like playing hopscotch in a minefield.