uncertainty

I am a planner. I like to know what’s next. And when the unexpected happens, it – as my mother would say -“throws me for a loop!” But the last few years have been an exercise in expecting the unexpected. After my cancer diagnosis and treatment in 2012 at age 38, our family’s life trundled along nicely. Then beginning in 2019, things began to happen one after another- the loss of my mother in law after a long battle with cancer. The loss of my father after a shockingly short struggle with a different version of the insidious disease. Then the pandemic struck, with all the uncertainty that entailed. Plans went awry and our two college student daughters are living at home. Things haven’t quite worked out like I thought they might. And I don’t know what’s next. And I strive to learn to live with the uncertainty rather than raging against it.