a blessing for when you need a new dream

the old dream has died now,
and I really miss it.

O God help me let it go,
comfort me,
and give me a new one.

God have mercy.
Christ have mercy.
Spirit have mercy.

Therefore I will not restrain my mouth;
I will speak in the anguish of my spirit;
I will complain in the bitterness of my soul.
Job 7:11 ESV

God have mercy.
Christ have mercy.
Spirit have mercy.

In the shadow of Your wings
I will make my refuge,
until these calamities have passed by.
Psalm 57:1 NKJV

Blessed are we who are not trying to pretend,
who pour out our sadness and our longings,
naming the losses that we have suffered,
the things we can’t get back
the dreams that with heavy finality
have declared themselves over and done.

Blessed are we,
lifting each of them up to You, saying:
God, take the weight of all this,
the whole burden of loss
help me breathe more easily,
think more clearly, move more freely,
and somehow find a way to build again.
And in the meantime,
shelter me, strengthen me,

until I am whole again, a being intact
whose very agency gives you praise.

Blessed are we, who look to the horizon
watching for the low and long
and slow advent of dawn,
with gentler eyes and deeper breath,
who notice that just outside
the anteroom of the soul
there is a call that suddenly comes again
from sideways, as usual, bringing release.

It is something.
not easier, but simpler.
A place to stand on the borderlands
of possibility and peace.

God have mercy.
Christ have mercy.
Spirit have mercy.

God sees you. pray for what you need.
and go get ‘em tiger.

But you, O LORD, are a shield about me,
my glory, and the lifter of my head.
Psalm 3:3 ESV