I am rummaging through this day
in search of evidence
that tomorrow could be different.
As many times as I wake up
determined to bend the future
with each effort and expectation,
my conviction evaporates by the day’s end.
Lord, we are given so few chances
to direct the course of our lives.
So with what little is in my control,
could you help me try?
Let me know the satisfaction of sleep
exhausted by my effort.
Walk me to the edge of comfort
and keep me there long enough
to reach for something more.
Rescue me from familiar self-hatred.
(You’ll never do it. You can’t do it.)
Refine my ambition into honest goals.
Quiet my mind when it is already certain
that nothing could possibly be different.
And rekindle a tenderness in my uncertain heart
for my own small moments of courage
for you’ve given me nothing to do
but what’s mine to be done.
Love this! It resonates & I will add to my daily meditations.
Thank you. Really appreciate the honest thoughts and plain language.
Amen
This hit home today. Looking for the “what’s next” after retirement is daunting.
and then there’s that………retirement. “I am rummaging through this day in search of evidence that tomorrow could be different.” I am rummaging, clearing out clutter, thinking of downsizing…… some days it’s exhilarating, some days it’s exhausting. I’m counting on today to be exhilarating!
I look forward to each to each one of these blessings. Thank you for always having something that resonates with me!
This is so so beautiful “let me know the satisfaction of sleep exhausted by my effort” and “rescue me from familiar self hatred” 💗 yet all of it, the whole, so touching and what I needed! Thank you for sharing! 🙏🏻💗
I just love these blessings. I read them aloud to myself, more resounding and deeply absorbed. Thank you, Kate.
Thank you for teaching me how to rest in prayer.
Thank you for your encouraging blessings. It makes me feel ok. I was at a vineyard in Summerland BC, and there was a sign: “Everything Happens for a Riesling”. It made me smile and think of you😊
Just what I needed, when I needed it. Thank you!
‘for you’ve given me nothing to do but what’s mine to be done.’
ahhhhhh so true!
yes this– as I struggle with caretaking mom and loosing myself- this is my retirement?
Thank you as I deal with aging health, bursts of energy, sometimes Hope, fear love …all in the same breath! Blessings to you too, dear one!
Grateful for this prayer! TY
How beautiful. Thanks. I am going to share it with a young woman struggling with depression and self doubt.
“Rescue me from familiar self-hatred. (You’ll never do it. You can’t do it.) Refine my ambition into honest goals. Quiet my mind when it is already certain that nothing could possibly be different. And rekindle a tenderness in my uncertain heart for my own small moments of courage for you’ve given me nothing to do but what’s mine to be done.” Thank you so much, Kate for these beautiful words and phrases. How they resonate within my soul! So necessary! If you’re not already familiar with mindful self-compassion, (and one of its components, fierce self-compassion), search it out and lean… Read more »
Thank you!